Security, Confidence, and Momentum

Security, Confidence, and Momentum

Seems at fifty, one should have not only one’s mind made up about a lot of things, like careers, favorite foods, clothing styles and the like, but your personality and who you are should be as well.

That is, unless you are a woman; a woman who was raised to ‘please’ and be ‘pleasing’. That woman might end up striking out on her own later in life. Personally I have marched to my own drummer for most of my life to some extent. In the last decade or two  my awareness and acknowledgement of my own personal choices have been in the forefront of my daily life. Realizing when and why in my younger years it wasn’t always the case.

One might venture to guess that my awareness of my trivial and lackluster writing has embarrassed me to the point of silence, and hold an expectation of an impending announcement about my ‘quitting’.  Others might sort out that my hiatus from the blogsphere had to do some of those realizations and await to see what comes of my efforts to keep at it.   

I have been re-calibrating my own voice, for lack of a better description.  Helps to know, when moving forward in life, two things.  First being where you are and the second where you want to go.

And maybe a third, do you want to  leave the ‘you where you are’? Everything you ever needed or wanted to might exactly be where you are right now.  Or, could what is important to you be here and some where in the future. Finding your own ‘X’ to stand on, and what dimension it will lead to next; kind of a combination of here and here in the next world. How risky is that movement forward. Did that make sense?

The second place, where you want to go? Where do I want to go?  How does who I am now and who will I be when I get there merge? Experience leaves subtle changes on us all.

Security, confidence, and momentum are three things I need in my backpack to seek my future. My momentum has been stagnant with purpose. My security and confidence needed to be built up. I think I am almost ready to gather up momentum and go.